"Iire I Ringa en' Hesin tulin...lintitinwe fui selma topė aurė...Mi I hayla en' I Anar...Mmė tasar vanta mi sįra mistė...Nan mi olórė...Amin er ten lya essė...Ar mi olórė...Mmė tasar omenta ata...Iire I airė ar oronti lanta...Ar mmė tulin, ana en' aurė...Mi I morna amin ten a yello...Yello nye en...Im tasar tara...Ar ata ata" {When the cold of winter comes...Starless night will cover day...In the veiling of the sun...We will walk in bitter rain...But in dreams...I still hear your name...And in dreams...We will meet again...When the seas and mountains fall...And we come, to end of days...In the dark I hear a call...Calling me there...I will go there...And back again} ...All That Is Gold Does Not Glitter...Not All Who Wander Are Lost...The Old that is Strong Does Not Wither...Deep Roots Are Not Reached By The Frost...From the Ashes A Fire Shall Be Woken...A Light From the Shadows Shall Spring...Renewed Shall Be Blade that Was Broken...The Crownless Again Shall Be King...Seek For The Sword That Was Broken: In Imaldris It Dwells: There Shall Be Counsels Taken...Stronger Than Morgul Spells...There Shall Be Shown A Token....That Doom Is Near At Hand...For Isildur's Bane Shall Be Woken...And The Halfling Forth Shall Stand...

"Seek for the Sword that was broken:
In Imladris it dwells;

There shall be counsels taken
Stronger than Morgul-spells.

There shall be shown a token
That Doom is near at hand,

For Isildur's Bane shall waken,
And the Halfling forth shall stand."

May it be an evening star
Shines down upon you
May it be when darkness falls
Your heart will be true
You walk a lonely road
Oh! How far you are from home
Morniė utśliė
(Quenya: Darkness has come)
Believe and you will find your way
Morniė alantiė
(Quenya: Darkness has fallen)
A promise lives within you now


tragic ‡ Boromir would die for me.
ŗ I brake!! : Boromir ŗ
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I Suck
( 2006-02-09 @ 12:38 a.m. )

Sometimes......sometimes I ponder over deleting this whole diary.


So many dramas played out over D-Land that I am tempted.........sometimes I cant read back through my journal. I miss the Sistership too much.

Most of the time, I wind up feeling that it was my fault that it fell apart, not completley but I was a large part of it's un-doing. I wind up feeling awful. I miss the nights of weddings and chats, I miss days of going to my mailbox and always having a letter.

More than anything I miss the girls. I'm pissed that it went to shit, and alot of people wound up disliking me for various reasons....I'm pissed I let it get to that point.


I guess I'm pissed I didn't fight harder for something I loved so much.


Part of me wanted to start it back up, but I wasn't sure if anyoneldwant me around, there had after all been so much drama and usually I was right in the middle of it.

I have never really and truly forgiven myself. I probably never will. I think back on all that I missed so often. *Sighs~ You know, Captain Jack and I never got married.........I hate that, and yes I really DO think about things that inconsequential sometimes. It actually does upset me...all the things the S-Ship as a group never had.

Things I should have provided.


That I obviously did not. I fancied myself a Good Leader, I guess I really wasn't..........which gets me to thinking, if I couldnt lead this group, what makes me think I can chair a committee and so on?


I'm still pissed the Sistership is gone, I guess it owuld have been better had it lived on with or without me. I was a selfish ass, and I was wrong.

Wrong about alot of things.


I really dont know what else to say other than I was wrong, I am sorry, I made alot of mistakes and I was not a good leader.........I apologize, and I miss all of you.


Geez, don't you wish we could have a LOTR-Sisters reunion or something?


Anyway.....yea


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