I ask only for the strength to defend my people.

I am Safe
( 2004-06-06 @ 12:55 a.m. )

Wheee! Well here I am again, immersed in my own little fantasy world!

But first, let's get one to the premiere of Harry Potter shall we?

Well, firstly the movie itself......Buckbeak was brilliant, Draco was a BIT to whiny, but maybe I'm biased because of the Ivy Malfoy fic I write, Lupin whom I thought I would HATE due to trailers I actually liked alot.....what else? Well Harry/Danielle has hit puberty....odd and kind of scary! No Oliver, no Quidditch cup, was VERY dissapointed there even though I expected it!

As to the premiere I WENT TO personally, twas fun...I dressed in my complete Slytherin garb, winth my Draco wand......now here's the funny bit, there was a kid, maybe 15 at MOST that looked just like Draco/Tom....which was scary, I remarked on this as I went to the bathroom, well I stopped to get a soda, there he was....dressed up to, so I said nice costume.....

He said "What costume?" he was taking this seriously....and I mean that, and he kept using my slytherin costume as a excuse to hit on me....and he was FIFTEEN! I nearly died laughing, was sort of cute and sweet though...I took a picture.......must get that developed!

but in any case, I was pleased with the movie,more so than I thought I would be. I also obviously have my ROTK DVD.....Watching it just brought memories gushing back....Gathering, Beckers, Fruthy, Gina, pAndi, Anwen, Roxy, Mel.....and then just LOTR in general, how much I love Boromir especially and why......

It's so good to know that even when the films are over, nothing has changed. For a while I feared it would somehow change things, but that was ridiculous of me. It's something in my blood...I mean to be honest, as a 12 year old child, Boromir was the first man I loved...~blushes~ and they say you never forget your first love....and I guess that's true. It's still as deep and pure as ever. I guess that's why I dont mind it when peopel make fun of me, my love and adoration of Boromir is completley pure, a love that will always remain a bright star, never to be touched or tainted. How can you argue with that?

I realize that to most I seem eccentric at best, insane at worst. I cry, I literally have to hide if theose flashbacks to Boromir's death come on {A-La ROTK special features where I shoved my fingers in my ears, hid under the blanket and sang loudly}, I even write letters to Boromir, Pippin, Frodo...whomever and put them in bottles then throw them in the ocean.....the Undying Lands after all lays beyond the sea.........who is to say?

Sometimes it's so lonley, just being immersed in this world of magi. Real life threatens every day to send it crumbling down upon you. Sometimes it doesnt even seem worth it....but it is, it's always worth keeping the magic alive. It sets us as a breed apart.......we believe middle earth exists somewhere.........we believe in more than just books and "Faerie Stories".

We believe in the Faeries themselves.

And far to few in this day and age can claim that.

Does it bother me that people find me a bit odd? Sure........certain people in my life, while I love them dearly, explaining why certain things just bring me to tears, or why I set a plate of food outside for the faeries is more of a bother than anything. They will never understand, even if I DID explain it...I would only get thrown into a institution...lol!

It's sad to look around and realize how much magic has died, but it's up to us few people who can, to preserve whatever bits we DO find. Granted, sometimes that's a thankless job, but trust me....it's noticed, maybe not by people in this realm, but through the veil where dreams become reality someone is noticing, and you will get thanked.

That alone makes it worth it.

Yet again, so what if I think I'm a elf and that somewhere, somehow Boromir is waiting for me? SO WHAT?

Who cares? I dont think I'm insane, and if you do, well that's your problem with your own perceptions to deal with......and good luck with that. Let me live in my world of elves, men, pirates, Faeries, dragons and unicorns...you go be mundane with tv's, Mcdonald's and such.

Not me....not ever.

People like me and I know alot of you have our own agendas..........we hold our heads a bit higher and there is always a sparkly something in our eyes as if we know a secret we refuse to share, and usually, we do. And I say good for us......

We may get jobs, make money but we never really grow up, and that's what sets us apart, and I am thankful every day for that. For the secret in my heart, the twinkle in my eye, and the glitter in my wake....

We will always be different, and there's no shame in that. I will always trasure the indescribable feelings of splendor I get just SEEING Gondor in the films, and the love I feel when I see Boromir, or the smile that I get when I see Pippin, there I am safe.......they are with me, and I am safe.

Boromir is with me, Pippin holds my hand, Frodo comforts me, Galadriel shares her wisdom.....and I am safe.

And I'm staying here!

Leave me to my muses, Boromir, Haldir, Galadriel, Shelob, Draco, Lucius, Oliver, Jack, Mort and Captain Hook.....I'll be fine.....trust me!

That is all.

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