I ask only for the strength to defend my people.

Friends
( 2004-04-11 @ 12:59 a.m. )

GO HERE and ogle my layout, and read my novelage and poetry, no one signs my g-book there and it makes me sad. SO GO!

Wow. What a week, stress, annoyance, stress, horror....more stress.

But im not going to write about any of that. Nope, not a bit.

Going to stick to what's important in life. Friends. Yes....the important things.

Friends, a undying sense of loyalty. Friends......what is a friend really? How much do we pay attention to whom we label as friends?

Friends are a scared thing. To me, when you really get down to it so many things define friends.

They are the peopel you dont mind helping, that you dont mind listening to when the shit hits the fan. When the oppurtunity to help them comes up your the first one there. If they are scared, your there......in the space of less than a heartbeat.

The person or people with whom you dont even have to SPEAK to speak. You can say nothing at all but they just "Get" it like some sort of crazy-scary telepathy. You never get sick of seeing what you have in common, be it types of cookies, or ideals...and when you dont have something in common, you appreciate each others views.

They are the people with whom there arent any long, uncomfortable silences....because you dont feel uncomfrotable to begin with. You just sort of laugh to yourself and pass it off, your not paranoid, or worried about what theyre thinking.

Most importantly probably is the feeling. The feeling that you WANT to tell them they are special. Sounds silly, but true. You want to tell them they are special, that they mean something to you......now those of you who are my friends, soem of you know I have called you at 4 am to tell you your special, and to thank you for all the hard work. Others I have simply told over AIM "Your a special person, and a good friend.", others I have written poems for. Others I have expressed it in other ways.

I have tried, in as many ways as I can to make my friends feel special.......

So now I am going to do something I do on a whim sometimes....list out some of the peopel that need recognition, and if your not on this list DO NOT BE OFFENDED, I have alot of very good friends.........and you all know who you are. Poke me and bitch about not being listed, ill get you next time.

J2. We disagree sometimes, we have our moments, but your a good friend and a good person. You know that, dont need me to tell you that.

Jo Jesus woman, youve been here for me longer than anyone else with a sunyn smile, a shoulder to cry on, and amazing advice. I cant thank you enough......a Robot with a Hobbit's heart!LOL!

DevSo sweet and understanding and so much fun. You have had the worst of times and still made me smile, thank you.

Kate you come and go, then return like a soft mist, or a long-forgotten song. Nomatter where you journey, with un-spoken words I will always love you.

Kate Alix, A-Nance, or whatever moniker you go by at this very minute, I love you, your laugh, your outlook, just having you as a friend makes me smile.

Elnara a new friend of mine, so sweet, and we have so much in common, her entries bubble over with joy and just make me smile.

Avi so we dont talk much, still a friend, still my lady in red.

Mel A beautiful smile and a wonderful person, so much fun, even if we only met briefly. Thanks Mel for just making me smile.

ChiAnother old friend I hardly speak to, but the memories are still there, as is the love.

SpunkyAnother old friend, so many giggles, smiles and laughing. I lvoe you to bits.

Jess So sweet, and caring, and loving. A wonderful friend and wonderful person....there's nothing I dont love about you.

Wrenneth Muh silly goose! Your messages always make me grin and laugh. Your so silly, and the best.

GeorgieSilly, funny, and I love your diary. You always pop up with a kind word when I need it most. Thanks.

Sabina A sweet girl, lovley diary, and was always so kind to me. Just all around wonderful.

Tai always keeps my faith up when I seem to have none. A kind word, a prayer, a smile and a letter. A true friend.

Aerynwe dont talk much, but you forced me to open up in ways I never had, to you I owe so much, I love you dearly and IF you need me, I am here.

J1Og Lord, there arent even words. Fellow poet, Fellow EVERYTHING, her mere presence makes me msile and giggle, I so look forward to talking to her,. plus she understands the concept of MUSE TROUBLES, I always look forward to talking to J1.

TinaSo understanding, so kind, ALWAYS there, makes me smile. She fulfills my wishes when they seem broken, and picks me up when IM broken, I oculdnt ask for a better friend, so loving, and caring and soooooooooooo special.

TrinaShe cares so much, and flatters me FAR to much. She deserves everything and is so incredibly special. I adore her to bits.

BeckersCrazy, insane, and full of fun and life. Just being around her makes me feel alive, and so special. I have adored her for forever, and always will. I am so lucky to have her.

LaureFun, and so wonderful to write letters with. She always makes me feel good, and her writing is a true joy, I enjoy every letter, and every entry.

KatHere or not, gone or not always a friend, and always incredibly special, and someone who deserves the very best.

GinaAnother person for whom there arent words, she flatters me to much, but her smile lights up a entire room, and to be able to bask wthin her brilliance is the best gift ever. I lvoe her to tiny bits and am so lucky to know her.

RachNo awkwardness, all smiles, laughs and giggles. We spoke without words, and your so strong, and amazing and wonderful. Our time togetehr was brief, but there is more to come and I eagerly await it. Your so strong and unique, and downright beautiful.

FruthyCrazy, insane, fun and full of life. So much fun and so refreshing, you realyl do love yourself and are such a inspiration, so strong and brave. Thank you for all the help and influence, you have taught me so much.

AnwenA quiet, soft beauty and such a loving friend, you cried with me and let me cry on you. I will always treasure that bond, and you are a truie blessing and so wonderful, and I will always treasure the Ivy leaf.

AndyYou have taught me, and I lvoe to be there for you. You deserve the best in friends, life, and love, I shall forever try to be the first, and support you through the latter. I lvoe you so much, your a true friend, and a real jewel.

pAndiWow, all at once I ofund my geek-soulmate. You make me laugh, smile, spit soda and I am ashamed to share nothing with you. I cannot thank you in words, but you are so amazing, brilliant and wonderful, and anyone who says differently answers to the ass macaroons!

Now if you arent here you still my friend, and still just as special, but if I put everyone here at once I would be typing until New Years.

Seriously though, take the tiem to tell your friends how special they are. We may fancy ourselves unicorns, or phoenixes, or dragons, or elves, hobbits, dark ladies......but even the most fabled and mystical creatures do not wander alone.

Until Then...

P.S. Mort Rainey is one PAIN IN THE ASS muse. Fireplace pokers, hatchets, screwdrivers, and shovels.......EARGH!

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