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Peppermint Crunch!
( 2003-11-14 @ 7:19 p.m. )
Hello again all.
I'm back. Ugh, I have had a week of it, and not a good one, my father has a cyst on his kidney, he went into the hospital for the same earlier this year, and it was not cancer, but I am still worried senseless. I am just one big stressed out ball of raw nerves.
Not pretty.
Alot of other stuff going on to........but like Beckers, the music makes everything allright.
That has been the one thing that has never failed me. Ever.
The day it does will be the day I cease to exist as myself.
Some people enjoy music, other people live it, breathe it, feel it..........I have been eating it as well, I have felt so uber-shitty the past three days I havent really eaten.
The music is whats important, the music keeps me going through all of this. That and my friends, all of you out there. ~Points randomly into every direction in D-Land~
Even the random people who dont know me and read my diary....you guys to.
It's been a hard month for me, I have felt liek I have been slowly losing my sense of direction. I was going to be this person who made a difference, that was pro-active instead of re-active, but I lost all of that in the mess of everything else.
I need to get that back, it was my purpouse, a driving force if you will.
And I need that back, I have to work on that, so all of you out there, dont let me slip up. Im not nearly as strong or amazing as people think.
Im just not.
Sorry for the randomness of this entry, I needed to be random.......and besides, I have all of you, and my My Little Ponies to support me!LOL!
On a Last Note....EEEK EEEK EKK! SO CLOSE TO TTT EE! EEEEK! AND MASTER AND COMMANDER! IM GOING TO SEE IT! BILLEH!
Ok, fangirl moment over.
Until Then...
Believe and You Will Find Your Way...
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